Tuesday, June 26, 2001

“Bobby, are you and Eddie okay?” Ciara had talked to Jarod and when they were done, he gave the phone to Bobby.

“We’re okay, you okay?” he countered.

“I’m doing better. You take care of each other and listen to Jarod and Susie and if you want to talk to me, call me. Okay?”

“Jarod says to be happy and I promise. Love you… gotta go.” Bobby said and quickly hung up the phone. Ciara had just finished being on her phone for over three hours. She had called her therapist, Jarod and the boys, her assistant, her editor, and her publisher. Her life felt in balance again.

Rachel had gone online to check her email and catch up on her reading. They both loved fan fiction, but tried not to admit it too often.

Ciara was just about to get some more writing done when AJ called to let them know that the photo shoot was running behind schedule and for the girls to have lunch on their own. AJ also told Ciara that a car with security detail would come for the girls around four pm. Ciara said that was fine and that it would give her a chance to get some more writing done. She then handed her celly to Rachel and AJ handed his to Kevin so that Rachel and Kevin could talk.

“Okay C… before you get lost in your writing, let’s order lunch.” Rachel suggested after she and Kevin were finished. Ciara agreed. Once lunch was ordered, she dove into writing again.
”So AJ, what was Ciara screaming about last night?” Kevin asked.

“Bad dream. She didn’t want to discuss it. She’ll talk when she’s ready.” AJ and Kevin had moved away from Howie, Brian, and Nick to discuss the girls.

“I know. I shouldn’t be telling you this, but Rachel says the nightmares can get pretty bad.” Kevin wanted AJ to be prepared.

“Thanks. So what’s going on with you and Rachel? I though she and Brian would be the ones to get together.” AJ commented.

“She’s refreshing. Strong, intelligent, not too domineering, inquisitive, funny, challenging, and I love her laugh. It’s so contagious.” Kevin pictured Rachel’s face in front of him.

The guys continued to dish about the girls all through lunch. AJ deduced that Kevin was falling hard for Rachel and that it was totally unexpected.

“Kev… AJ… come check out the lounge.” Nick finally shouted after a few minutes of trying to get their attention by waving his arms and clearing this throat. They all had an hour or so to relax.

“Nick, are you feeling all right? You look a little flushed.” Kevin asked as they all walked back to the lounge.
AJ wished Ciara was with him. Now that they found each other after twelve years and many lies, he never wanted to be without her ever again. He was going to do everything he possibly could to keep her in his life forever more.

“Earth to AJ!” Brian had been playing checkers with AJ when AJ zoned out.

“Sorry… my turn?” AJ finally reacted to Brian’s voice.

“Where did you go?” Brian asked.

“Home again and I never thought I could go back ever again.” AJ replied. He was always told that home is where your heart is and his heart was with Ciara. Still.

The guys relaxed until sound check. Once theirs was over, their opening act set up.

“Hey guys, check out our opening act.” Howie said as the guys watched the roadies put up the keyboard and drums. The name of the act was The Replacement Wannabes.

“They’re a cover band of mostly eighties music.” Jamie explained, “They’re really hot here in Boston.”

“Sure they are.” AJ replied. `Anyone named The Replacement Wannabes just had to be trouble’, he thought.

I’m going to go see when the girls will get here. Excuse me.” AJ said. He was still upset with Jamie for trying to talk Ciara into recording the songs they sang the night before onto a maxi-CD single.

“You’re in luck. They’re on their way.” Max, one of their inner circle security team members, explained.

“I’ll be out next to the bus waiting for them.” AJ expressed as he walked by the guys and Jamie.

“Boy Jamie! What did you do to tick AJ off?” Kevin asked as AJ walked away from the group.”

“He’ll get over it.” Was Jamie’s response.
”The answer is no! I’m not singing again. I did last night as a favor to AJ and the guys. I’m not doing it again. I am not a singer.” Ciara was ambushed the second she and Rachel got into the limousine. “Does AJ know you’re here? Because if he did, you’d be in hot water.” Ciara was beyond mad.

“Hear me out… it would just be the four songs that you and AJ sang last night. Just you and AJ and the band backing you up and it would be billed as `Johnny No Name and Lady C’.” the record producer remained calm, which set Ciara off even more.

“Ciara… deep breadths.” Rachel said sternly. Ciara was flushed from being angry.

“Stop the limousine.” Ciara ordered. The producer didn’t budge. Rachel called Kevin’s cell phone.
”Rach… what’s wrong?” Kevin immediately answered the phone. He listened to Rachel explain what was happening.

“All right, all right. Call down. AJ and I will get to the bottom of this. Where are you?” Kevin asked. The girls had gotten out of the limousine and could see the Fleet Center. They were walking towards it. Kevin hung up with Rachel, then turned to Jamie.

“You just couldn’t respect their wishes, could you?” Kevin said before heading off to find AJ. Brian, Howie, and Nick were curious as to what happened. When Kevin reached AJ, AJ was on the phone.

“Ok, I’ll send Max out to meet you two. Are you all right?” AJ asked into the phone. Kevin assumed he was talking to Ciara.

“Yes AJ, we’re fine… just getting some exercise.” Ciara explained. She didn’t tell him what happened, just that she needed some fresh air so they decided to walk. Rachle took her phone from her.

“AJ, it’s Rachel. I told Kevin what happened. Ciara just doesn’t want to be any trouble. Ciara was ambushed by one of Jive’s record producers in the limousine. That’s why we got out of it.” Rachel told AJ the truth.

“Rachel!” Ciara begged Rachel to stop. By this time, the limousine had pulled in next to the bus.

“Rachel… Security will meet you. Max is on his way.” AJ hung up the phone. He waitined until the limousine door opened. “I though you should know… I’m not going onstage tonight.” AJ said before going over to Max and explaining what he needed Max to do.

“What the hell is going on?” the record producer asked.

“Kyle, we know what you tried to do to Ciara just now, and frankly, I’m not going on either.” Kevin stated. Brain, Nick, and Howie all backed Kevin and AJ up and declared that they weren’t going on either.

“Hear me out guys… please.” Kyle begged.

“No! If you can’t respect AL and Ciara’s wishes, then tonight is a washout. You want to go out there and tell the fans or should we?” Kevin stated.

“You win… you win.” Kyle said. AJ had come back over to the gang.

“Jamie’s fired. Get us someone else to do his job.” AJ stated, “and if anyone tries this again. I walk. Not just from performing, but from the label.” AJ left everyone standing next to the limousine as he went back on the bus to await Ciara.
The girls met up with Max and a few of the security detail just outside the entrance to the parking lot of the Fleet Center. Max had strict orders to take the girls straight to the bus.
Nothing was mentioned about the limousine. Kyle and Jamie were nowhere in sight when the girls arrived. They were ushered to the bus. All five guys were concerned and very apologetic about what happened.

“It’s okay guys. Can we just forget about it? Please?” Ciara asked. She just wanted the entire incident to be forgotten.

“So what all did you do today?” AJ asked Ciara to change the subject.

“The usual… harassed people on the phone, wrote lies about them and then gossiped about it all with everyone I possibly could.” She joked. Everyone laughed.

“You are wonderful.” AJ said and pulled her into a hug.

“How about some food?” There’s no meet and greet tonight so it’ll be a nice, long dinner hour.” Howie suggested. The gang all went to the dining area.

Howie’s family and Nick’s family were in the dining hall so everyone sat around and talked with them for awhile.

“Ciara Bryar!” Came a loud, booming voice from one end of the room. She recognized the voice instantly.

“Uncle Tony!” she looked at AJ. He nodded. She lit up. Uncle Tony was like a father to AJ. He wondered if Tony knew what happened. AJ followed behind Ciara as she ran to Tony.

“It’s so good to see you uncle Tony!” Ciara declared as they embraced.

“Same here little one. You look as beautiful as I imagined. AJ, son, you’re looking well. New tattoos?” The men exchanged nods of approval.

“Not lately. Have you talked to mom?” AJ asked.

“Both your moms called me. Ciara, hearing from your mom after all these years and finding out that you were still here is quite a shock. If I wasn’t here with you standing in front of me, I’d still be denying it.” Tony explained.

“So they lied to you too?” AJ asked. Uncle Tony nodded in response.

“Is my mom all right?” Ciara asked.

“Yes, she should be back home by now. Your stepdad is a great guy, Ciara. And AJ, your mom is sorry about all of this.”

“I know, I just need a day or two to calm down. So… can you stay?” AJ asked. Tony said he could. They joined the others and helped Rachel and Ciara get some more insight on the guys.

Before Ciara and Rachel could be put in the hot seat though, it was time for the guys to get ready and the opening act to take the stage.
After the concert, the guys received their itinerary for the following day. Ciara and Rachel boarded the bus with the guys to return to the hotel. Kevin, Rachel, Howie, and Brian decided to go out dancing. Nick wasn’t feeling very well so he opted to stay back and go to bed. Ciara and AJ ordered room service and talked.

Around two am, Nick knocked on the door.

“Nicky? What’s wrong?” AJ asked as soon as he saw his young friend.

“I really don’t feel well. Something’s wrong.” Nick replied. Ciara felt his forehead. He was burning up.

“Call Rachel. She’ll know what to do.” Ciara told AJ. She spit out Rachel’s cell phone number as she helped Nick to the couch. AJ got through right away to Rachel. She and the guys were on their way back to the hotel.

“They’ll be back any minute. Nick, buddy, what’s wrong?” AJ asked. Both he and Ciara were concerned about Nick. Ciara had gone to the bathroom and prepared a cool, wet washcloth to wipe down his face.

“Ache all over, can’t keep anything down and my right side is killing me. Can’t get warm.” Nick’s voice was cracking. His symptoms sounded like appendicitis to Ciara.

“I’m not waiting for Rachel. Nick, we need to get you to the hospital. How long have you been feeling this way?” Ciara asked as she called the front desk.

“A couple of days, but not as bad as now.” He admitted.

Ciara asked the front desk if they had a house doctor, when they said no, Ciara asked for them to call 911.

“911! Are you nuts? This will be all over the news by six am!” Nick cried out.

“I’d rather have this on there than them announcing your death, Nick. Now listen to Doctor Ciara!” AJ said sternly to Nick.

“AJ, can you carry Nick to the elevator?” Let’s meet the ambulance downstairs.” Ciara wanted to get Nick to the hospital as soon as possible. Without hesitation AJ scooped up Nick and carried him.

“You’ve lost weight pal.” AJ said to Nick.

“That’s what happens when you can’t keep anything down. Man, I ache.” Nick said. He rested his head on AJ’s shoulder as AJ held onto him in the elevator. They arrived on the first floor as the paramedics were waiting to take an elevator up to their floor. Rachel and the guys were just arriving back at the hotel.

Ciara repeated everything Nick had told her and AJ and what she and AJ had observed to the paramedics.

“I’m a nurse.” Rachel jumped right in to help the paramedics.

“Recuperation after emergency surgery of your appendix is necessary, Nick.” Rachel explained as Nick came to in recovery the next morning.

“How long?” Nick asked. They had moved him to his own room and had given him a sedative to sleep. Rachel said she’d stay with him until he did.

“Two to three weeks. Management has been notified. And the dates will be rescheduled for the tour. Ciara and I would like it if you stayed with us at our place on the outskirts of New York City.” Rachel expressed that she wanted to look after him.

“What do the guys think?” Nick asked. He didn’t like going for three weeks without seeing them.

“Well, depending on itinerary, Kevin and AJ said they’d like to come stay with us. Howie and Brian don’t know about the offer yet. C’mon Nick. It’ll do you good and Ciara and I don’t bite.” Rachel smiled.

“I’d like that. Thanks Rachel.” Nick said before drifting off to sleep. She went out to the waiting room where everyone else was.

“How’s he doing?” Brian asked.

“He’s going to be just fine.” Rachel told everyone. She then told everyone about what she and Nick talked about and invited Brian and Howie to join them all at the house.

After Ciara and AJ visited Nick, they headed back to the hotel to pack up their things and Nick’s. They were going back to the house to get it ready for everyone.

AJ managed to have both himself and Nick packed before Ciara was ready to go.

“Hey slow poke!” AJ teased from the doorway.

“You can’t be done already!” she laughed as she looked at AJ standing in the doorway.

“Being on the road a lot, you learn to pack and never to unpack.” He laughed.

“I’ll just be a few more minutes. We’re not going to be late for the plane, are we?” she asked.

“No, we’ll make it.” He said as a bell hop arrived to help with their bags. Ciara finished zipping up her bags and handed them to AJ.
”Welcome to my humble abode.” Ciara said that evening when they had arrived at her country Victorian home. AJ looked around the foyer. The home was huge. Seven bedrooms, five baths, two powder rooms, a sauna room, family room, living room, dining room, huge kitchen, rec room, attic, basement, and Ciara’s den. Ciara showed AJ the house and the grounds.

Monday, June 25, 2001

“Ciara? Do you believe that Dylan would want you to move on with your life and find someone to love and grow old with?” Rachel asked as they re-applied their make-up and did their hair. They had taken quick showers when they got back to the bus and were just about ready to join the guys so Ciara and AJ could go on stage to open up the concert.

“He told me he did. We discussed it when we found out I was in need of the transplant or I would die. What about you and Doug? Did you two ever discuss it?” Ciara asked as she put her hair in a french braid.

“Yes, and I promised him I would, but now that it’s here… I’m hesitant.” She admitted.

“I know what you mean. But why are you hesitant?” You think maybe you and Brian may have something?” Ciara was curious.

“No, me and Kevin.” Rachel applied her lipstick as Ciara’s jaw dropped.

“I thought you and Brian hit it off the other night fairly well. I thought for sure you two would connect. Now, excuse me a sec while I pick my jaw up off the ground.” Ciara was stunned.

We did, but Kevin’s more mysterious and dangerous. He snuck into my bunk last night and held me in his arms. We necked and I really enjoyed that. Brian’s just a little too pure for me.” Rachel explained.

“Excuse me? Too pure for you? Since when?” Ciara held back the laughter that was dying to come out.

“I just really think Kevin is someone I could fall for. He interests me.” Rachel defended herself. “What about you and AJ. Could there be something developing with you two? I see the way you both look at each other.” Rachel turned the tables on Ciara.

“Too soon to tell. It’s only been a few days since he came into my life and brought back the memories I’ve been missing.”

“When you were thirteen/fourteen years old, did you have a crush on him?” Rachel asked. The girls didn’t know it, but AJ was walking under an open window of the bus and stopped in his tracks when he heard Rachel ask that question.

“Back then, I felt and believed AJ and I would be together forever. He had asked me to be his girl the day of the accident.” Ciara sighed, “I don’t know if it was lust, puppy love, or the real thing, but it was powerful. I had the butterflies in my stomach and physically ached when we went a day or two without speaking.” Ciara teared up just thinking about it and her hands began to shake.

“Are you okay?” Rachel noticed something was wrong.

“Yeah, I’m just… I don’t know… nervous… I’m not sure. Anyway, I’m hoping that the rest of this week and next helps bridge the gap between before the coma and after it. God! My therapist is going to love me.” She finished as there was a knock on the door to the bus.

“Girls? Are you decent?” AJ yelled. Rachel threw a blanket over Ciara’s outfit.

“What are you doing?” Ciara laughed.

“Just trust me. You want to surprise him with how you look tonight, all right?” Rachel flew by Ciara to open the door.

“Hey AJ. What’s up?” Rachel asked.

“I forgot something on the bus. Can I come in and get it?” AJ asked.

“”Sure.” Rachel let him in.

“AJ went right to his bunk and retrieved the picture of Ciara and him at a friend’s birthday party a week before their accident. He wore it in a pocket for every performance. When he walked back towards the frount of the bus, Ciara called out to him and stood behind him, making sure her outfit was hidden.

“AJ?” she called out. He turned around to find her standing next to him.

`Restraint, AJ… restraint!’ he said to himself.

“Yes?” he asked.

“Good luck tonight.” She said. AJ pulled her into a passionate kiss, all restraint was gone.

“I have you back in my life now. You’re all the luck I need.” AJ said and left the bus. Ciara was in shock. She could not believe that just happened. Rachel hadn’t seen the kiss but had a feeling it happened just by the look on Ciara’s face.

“Ciara? Are you okay?” Rachel asked. Ciara managed to sit back down and nod as she re-played the kiss in her mind.

“Oh my.” Ciara sighed and placed a hand on her lips, remembering the kiss.

“What? He kissed you, didn’t he?” Rachel asked.

“Oh yeah!” Ciara replied.

“And how was it?” Rachel wanted details.

“Wonderful, breathtaking, amazing.” Ciara stated. AJ was standing underneath the window and threw his hands up in the victory sign. He was ecstatic. He had been wanting to kiss Ciara like that since he saw her in New York at the MTV studios.
”Five minutes AJ! Where’s Ciara?” one of the crew asked.

“Right here.” Ciara and Rachel joined AJ backstage.

“Everything okay?” AJ asked Ciara.

“Couldn’t be better. Let’s go do this.” Ciara was pumped after that kiss.

Nick introduced them to the audience.

“Hey everyone. We have a special treat for you tonight, but first I have a message for Krystal – K… the guys and I hope you’re feeling better soon. We love you and miss you! And now appearing for one night and one night only, Johnny No Name and Lady C!” Nick pointed to AJ and Ciara as they came out on stage holding hands. The band started the music right away. The audience loved them. Brian, Kevin, Rachel, Nick, and Howie all watched them from the side of the stage. They worked the crowd while stealing glances at each other.

“She’s a natural!” Kevin declared as AJ and Ciara finished the four-song set.

“That was amazing!” Ciara exclaimed when she and AJ ran off stage.

“You two were great! Listen to that crowd!” Jamie, the stage manager, stated. Rachel and the guys pulled Ciara and AJ into a big congratulatory hug.

“Can I have a moment alone with AJ please?” Ciara asked everyone. She took him by the hand and led him into a curtained-off section. As soon as the curtain was closed, she returned the kiss he gave her back on the bus.”

“Wow! What was that for?” AJ couldn’t help but grin.

“Just returning something. We’ve got a lot to talk about and all the time in the world. But first, I just wanted to thank you for waking me up. And I’ve been wanting to do that since the kiss on the bus.” Ciara spoke really fast.

“Can we do that again?” AJ asked. Ciara looked up as if she was asking for permission and realized that Dylan made her promise to go on with life, love, and happiness and that she didn’t need to ask for permission. She already had it.

“I thought you’d never ask.” Ciara smiled as they kissed again.

Kevin, Nick, Brian, Howie, and Rachel all high-fived each other on the other side of the curtain.

“Did you hear something?” AJ asked, breaking the kiss. Rachel and the guys ran for cover.

“Just your heartbeat.” Ciara admitted. AJ blushed.

“It just feels so right, kissing you.” AJ told her as he traced her jaw line with a finger.

“I know. Look. I can’t promise anything right now. There’s so much going on that I need to process and sort out, but I don know that there could be something amazing between us.” Ciara was trying to be fair, honest, and level-headed with AJ.

“So there’s hope?” AJ asked.

“There’s always hope AJ.” She promised.

“Ten minutes AJ. We need a costume change from you.” Jamie yelled from outside the curtain.

“That’s me. I have to go. Security will take you and Rachel to the VIP section. We’ll see you after the show.” AJ flashed Ciara a smile and kissed her cheek. She held onto his hand for a few more seconds. AJ’s eyes met Ciara’s. She had a lot more to say to him. She longed for the concert to be over so she could tell him.

“Have fun out there AJ.” She said as she let go of his hand. She stayed back in the curtained area for a moment, closing her eyes and picturing Dylan. “You were right Dylan. Thank you so much. I’ll always love you.” Ciara spoke softly as she reached for the locket Dylan had given her. She took it off and placed it in her zippered pocked of her jeans.

“Ciara? Everything all right?” Rachel asked.

“Yeah, Rachel. Everything’s great. Let’s go.” Ciara said. She gave the rest of the guys a hug and kiss for good luck before security led her and Rachel to the VIP section so they could enjoy the concert.

The concert rocked. Ciara and Rachel enjoyed themselves thoroughly as they watched the guys perform. Towards the end of the show, before the encore, security took them backstage where they met the guys and cheered them back onstage. Ciara knew she and AJ needed to talk. He gave her a knowing look before going back onstage.

“I have never seen a connection so trusting and so tight like the one you and AJ have.” Rachel commented.

“What do you mean?”

“You and Dylan never had something so intense.”

“AJ and I have a second chance, Rachel. Something that, hopefully, will replace the first chance we never truly had. I’m happy we’re here, Rachel. Thanks for entering the contest and winning.” Ciara said.

“Who knew!” Rachel shrugged as the two women embraced.

After the concert, they all boarded the tour bus to ship out to Boston for two shows at the Fleet Center. Nick and Howie played video games, Brian was working on a song, and Rachel and Kevin were talking. Ciara had changed into some comfy clothing while AJ was talking up front with Jamie.

“No Jamie. No deal. Jamie called Jive records after sound check to tell them about Ciara. He wanted Ciara and AJ to record the songs for retail later in the year.

She needs to share her voice with everyone. It’s so beautiful.” Jamie stuck his ground.

“Jamie, I lost her once due to outside forces, I just got her back, I’m not going to lose her again! She stated this was a one shot deal and that’s it. Don’t make me choose between her and you because you’ll lose Jamie… You’ll lose.” AJ was livid. When he returned to the back of the bus, Ciara was asleep on the couch next to Nick and Howe. They had put a movie in.

“Everything okay?” Howie asked AJ. AJ just nodded as he sat in the chair on the other side of Ciara. Howie woke Nick up and pointed him in the direction of his bunk, said good night to AJ and then went to his own bunk. Kevin and Rachel were still sitting at the table talking. Brian was no where in sight. AJ moved to the other side of Ciara and got under the covers with her.

“AJ? She stirred.

“Ssshhh… back to sleep C…” he spoke softly. They slept on the couch together for a few hours until they reached Boston and the hotel. Once everyone was checked in, Ciara slept in AJ’s room with him. Kevin and Rachel were in the next room sleeping when they heard Ciara scream.

“Ciara!” Rachel awoke to Ciara’s screams and went to go to her. Kevin stopped her.

“AJ’s with her. She’ll be okay.” Kevin reassured her.

“Sorry, it’s just automatic for me.” She replied.
”Ciara baby, what is it?” AJ asked.

“Bad dream. Don’t want to discuss it. Go back to sleep AJ.” Ciara got out of bed to splash some water on her face. “He’s not going to die on you, Ciara. Get a grip.” Ciara scolded herself. Her dream was about AJ being hurt. She couldn’t find him and when she did, Jarod and Rachel told her he was gone.

AJ waited up for her. Even if she didn’t want to talk about it, he didn’t want her to feel alone. When she didn’t come out after fifteen minutes, AJ checked on her.

“C’mon Ciara. Come back to bed.” AJ knocked on the door. Ciara opened the door. AJ took one look into her eyes and knew the nightmare was about him. He opened his arms for her. “I’m not going anywhere.” He said as they hugged. A few minutes later, they went back to bed.
The guys had a photo shoot in the morning so after breakfast the girls went back to their room. Ciara made a few calls to check on the twins, her mom, and to talk to her therapist.