Sunday, July 29, 2001

Kevin, Howie, Rachel, and Ciara were all sitting in the kitchen playing Uno when AJ and Jarod returned an hour later. Rachel checked her watch, it was a quarter to ten.

"Uh oh, time for the twins to go to bed." Jarod said as he looked at his watch. AJ took Ciara's hand and led her into the kitchen.

"Jarod told me about that first year after the accident Ciara. He opened my eyes to your mother's actions and your coma and your rehab. I wish I would have been there for you, C. I should have been there for you." AJ began to cry. Ciara took her hand to his face.

"We're not going to rehash this AJ. It's done and over with. Okay. Let's move on." Ciara asked of him.

"I can't help it. It just hurts so much to know what you went through." AJ told her. Ciara pulled him into an embrace.

"Excuse me, C…" Eddie had gone into the kitchen to say goodnight to his sister.

"Hey Eddie… did you have fun with Nick and Brian?" she asked.

"They're cool. I just wanted to say goodnight." Eddie said and gave his sister a hug.

"Good night? Hey, where's Bobby?" she wondered.

"Jarod took him upstairs. He was asleep on the couch." Eddie giggled.

"You won't be laughing when he wakes your sorry butt up in the morning." Ciara laughed with him.

"I know, but I can't help it. Good night AJ." Eddie said.

"Goodnight sport." AJ said.

Jarod was in the dining room talking with Rachel and Kevin while AJ and Ciara continued to talk in the kitchen.

"Just a lot to help me understand you a little better, like why didn't you tell me it took you two years to be able to walk without crutches, or a walker, or even a cane? That you became a book worm and couldn't get enough of reading. That you barely watched TV, and you would write for hours on end? I want to know these things. I want to know everything I possibly can about you and the years I missed." AJ explained.

"AJ, I feel the same way about you. Please… we just met again after all this time last Friday. I'm still finding the person I was long ago. Things are so complicated and hard to explain. I want to tell you everything, I do… but in my own time. Can you understand that?" Ciara asked him.

"Yes, I can and I do. I guess I'm just impatient and I want to know everything right now. Can you blame me?" AJ asked.

"Of course not, just remember, I want us to take things slow, for my sanity, we need to." Ciara told him.

"So can I get you to tell me about the two years it took you to walk again?" AJ asked.

"How about I show you?" Ciara suggested. She still had the videotape of it. She had several weeks worth because she felt that if she were to keep going at it, she would need those to remind her to keep going.

"Hey you two… we were going to watch a movie, wanna watch with us?" Howie came into the room.

"Um, sure…" Ciara suggested.

"Uh, Howie… can we take a raincheck? We're in the middle of something." AJ told his friend.

"Sure…" Howie said and returned to the living room.

"Okay then. Come with me." Ciara took AJ's hand and led him to the den.

"This first tape is the hardest tape for me to watch, but it's what kept me going the most." Ciara explained as she plopped the tape in.

The first tape showed her trying to maintain her balance while sitting up because she still couldn't feel below her stomach although everything moved. She still had some swelling in her spine. It was like she was a baby again and was learning all over again. The only time she could feel anything was when she concentrated hard enough on what she was doing to her legs. It then showed her going to therapy and learning to roll over and how to use the wheelchair, and then it showed her trying to stand. By that time it was nearly four-thirty and they were both crying.

"If I had been there, you'd have been running after me that first day." AJ laughed as they both wiped their eyes.

"Probably so, Alex… probably so. C'mon, it's late… we need some sleep." She replied.

Once AJ was asleep, Ciara snuck out to talk with Jarod about her memories, their mom, and their brothers. Jarod was up… he was always up at five am. That was his quiet time before the hectic day began. They talked out on the patio so as not to wake anyone else up. Brian and Nick had fallen asleep in the den playing video games and Kevin and Howie were each asleep in their own rooms. Rachel was called into the hospital to cover for a few hours and would be back around nine am or so.

"He is so much in love with you Ciara. He hasn't changed a bit." Jarod said as they ended their hour-long conversation.

"I know. And I think that I'm falling in love with him again as well, but we just found each other a week ago. I'm afraid that as my memories become more and more intense that I'm going to drive him away."

"That's not possible. Not with how he feels about you." Jarod explained.

"What are you? My girlfriend?" Ciara teased her brother.

"I was the only one you would talk to about everything for the longest time, remember." Jarod replied.

"I do. I do… and thanks for coming out here. For calming my fears, for being there." Ciara gave her brother a hug.

"I am so glad you've got your memory back. So glad. Now, I have some more news for you. You think you can handle some more news?" Jarod asked.

"Yes. I can."

"Susie and I are going to have another baby and Dan has asked that we be temporary guardians over the boys while he focuses on mom. He and the boys discussed this and it's what they want. Susie and I want to do this, but we wanted you to be aware of it."

"I think the boys are better off with you and Susie and I couldn't be happier. I'm glad the boys want to be with you. That's the best news next to you having another child I could get now that I have my memory back. What can I do to help? Do you need some money for the boys? How about if all of you take a few days to the Cape or something?"

"No… no… we're all right, but thank you for offering. The boys still have the same rules at our house that they did at mom and Dan's the only difference is that they set the rules and they added a few more. And they are so great with Amy. So protective of her. It's like their brother/sister instead of uncle/niece."

"I'm glad and proud of those two. And I'm glad they didn't know the mom we did when we were younger." Ciara said after she yawned.

"Go on back to bed. How much of that tape did you two watch anyway last night?" Jarod said.

"The first tape… all of it. How did you know?"

"I came to say goodnight and you both were in the den watching it. I can't believe you kept it." Jarod said.

"I've kept them all. They're what motivates me when nothing else does. To know what I overcame all those years ago just motivates me to keep going." She yawned again.

"Good… now go back to bed. The boys and I will stay around for another night and we'll leave tomorrow. How about you and AJ taking them to a movie tonight?" Jarod suggested.

"I think that would be fantastic. See you in a few hours." Ciara gave her brother a hug and went back to bed.